When it rains....

You know the saying, when it rains it pours....

I don't like how true it is. I mean, it's cliche' as fuuuuuuuu, but it does seem to happen that way.
I can't help to think that maybe it's the mindset that we, as people, get into when things start to go wrong in our lives. Kind of like that, what you put out into the universe, comes back to you tenfold, it's like that. We think that because one thing went wrong, everything is going to go wrong, and we kind of will it to happen because we are looking for everything to go wrong.

All I know is right now, I'm unhappy. More than I have been in a long time. I need to get my happy back, and I'm not sure what to do to get it there, but I will get there...if it kills me. Ok, that's extreme, I don't want to die...the MS is already got that on lock, bastard autoimmune disease from hell.

Insomnia and Migraines, What a Twisted Web They Weave

Do you ever randomly think about things that have nothing to do with anything you're doing, they just kinda happen? 

Kinda like in *Empire Records...."who knows where thoughts come from, they just appear".-Lucas

Like today, my thoughts.....why do they make mascara tubes so big if you're supposed to throw them away every 3 months?

I think my brain is broken.

*if you haven't seen Empire Records, you're doing something wrong with your life. Handle that shit, immediately. 

I Sometimes Wonder....

I needed a place to post all my stuff....the stuff that gets in my head and sits there and eats at me daily. It's not always important, and it's rarely ever that profound, but it's stuff...stuff I need to say.

Take today, for instance. I haven't been sleeping well, if at all. I battle migraines, and I constantly battle my MS, and I just couldn't do it another day, so I called in to work. I slept most of the day, feeling guilty that I had called in, read some comic books because my constant migraine and fatigue has made me woefully behind on my reading....don't judge me, comic books are awesome, and DC just restarted all their lines, essentially calling it "Rebirth", which means I have even more shit to read. I read some, I napped some, but have I got caught up on anything, no....I did eat a shit ton of cheese puffs though, so I definitely have that going for me. 

So, basically, I wasted a day off where I could have caught up on a ton of things, and got caught up on none of them. 

I say it all the time, and some asshole already named their blog "I Need An Adult", so I couldn't.....but seriously, I need an adult.

So here we have it, my first post, and I still don't know the answer...

Seriously, who's in charge of me?